I began working for FireFit in December 2006 and by the end of the first summer (which looking back was exceptionally bad for reasons unrelated to FireFit but connected to H.) I was ready to hire someone else and get out of there. (Not walking with the Lord)
At the end of 2007 we hired N. to work an extra few hours a week to help me out. N. was a recent immigrant from South Africa, she was a lovely lady with an awesome accent, however when you work with the French and Newfies accents are not an asset. She was older than I would have hired and was not proficient with a computer, an absolute must for my job. N. worked with us for almost a year and then moved on. (Not walking with the Lord)
After N. left we hired A. for the 2008 season. A. lasted 6 months from February until the middle of July. A. had trouble dealing with H., I can understand that I too have trouble controlling my tongue and thoughts when H. is making what I consider to be bad decisions. A. worked almost full time during the summer, I worked only 1 day a week, I was very hopeful that A. would take over from me. A. was kind enough to give her 2 weeks notice and let me take 2 weeks of holidays before she left. (Not walking with the Lord)
My blog post "My Return to Christ" begins here
I worked alone for the 2009 season and by the end of it I was so ready to leave FireFit and move on the something else, anything else! I had my resignation letter printed, signed and ready to give to H. in November when they came home from a doctor's appointment for D. and found out he had been diagnosed with cancer. Into the shredder it went and I've never mentioned how close I was to leaving. I didn't feel that it was a fair time to quit because I wasn't enjoying working for D. and H. when they had much bigger and potentially life changing problems facing them. This all happened at the beginning of my return to Christ though I do believe I'd have made the same decision to stay regardless. (Beginning of my return to Christ)
In 2010 I attended the True Woman '10 conference in Chattanooga and really embraced God's calling and leadership and started to reform my life. In contemplating how God has been working in my life, even when I wasn't seeking him, I realized that He wants me to be working for FireFit. I got the job in the easiest way possible, I was playing soccer with H. and was invited to come for an interview (the job came to me). Three times I've tried to leave FireFit (without seeking the will of the Lord) and all three times something has happened that caused me to stay. (Walking with the Lord)
At first I began praying that the Lord would lead me out of FireFit and provide a way to leave. I still was not ready to fully submit my life to His will and tried to bend His will to my desires. After much introspection and some great interventions to have released the desire to leave FireFit and have surrendered the direction for my life to the Lord, I know that He has me in my current season for a reason and that when the time comes He will change the course of my life and I will move on to the next season.
Update February 5th, 2012 see my blog post An Answer to Prayer
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
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